$5000 chode

Went to venue with Value and was feeling good but there just did not seem to be many sets. The sausage was in full force. Probably an excuse and I don't think I've ever changed venues because there are not enough girls sounds like a chode excuse. But decided to do it anyway. Plus I wanted to show my face at the other venue for connection purposes.

I'm wandering around the club with Value and nothing is really sticking. I'm a little out of it. After an hour of this Value suggests we split off. At first I feel a little sense of that "where's my buddy?", where you want your wing around. I'm wandering around and I go to a bar and order some water. I see two different girls checking me out. I smile at one and we hold eyes for maybe 5 seconds. I get my drink and walk over and introduce myself to one of the girls who was checking me out. She's with a guy, but I decide since she was smiling at me I'm going to at least say hello.

Long story short I pull her back to her hotel room and fuck her. I think she is some kind of socialite. She tells me a story where she says she was hanging out with some guy and she just wanted to get fucked but he took her and her girlfriends out for some expensive night out on the town and spent like $5000 on them trying to impress them and he didn't even man up to pull her. Fucking chode. It's interesting to hear a girl talk about just wanting to get fucked and complaining about how a guy is not man enough to do it. Kind of mind blowing to hear these stories. It's like being on the other side. A few times now I've heard women tell me something basically about how chodey some guy was for some reason or another.

Car resistance

Had a slightly off night. Nothing was hitting to well and I felt a little out of state. Partly this might be because I didn't build momentum when I first got in the club. Instead of opening sets I decided to chill back a little. This was partly influenced by indeed who was visiting town and said he really only approaches girls where he's drawn to them. So I wondered about doing that myself. I think I will do that soon but I want to stay in my approach machine stage a little bit longer maybe 6 more months or so. I talked with M about this and we both agreed that it's good to open to just be social and build momentum.

I also listened to Tyler again and he talks about how as you get centered in your identity the state fluctuations start to go away. It's like you know who you are and you're not self seeking in other people. So I'm looking forward to that time.

Ended up hanging out with the doorman for the venue which was cool. Actually hung out with him for a bit and that kind of pumped my state. Situational confidence brought on by alliances as Tyler would say. Anyway I'm leaning against the bar and M opens a girl I think but she is looking over his shoulder at me intently. Normally I wouldn't take someone else's set but she was too in to me. I hold her gaze and point to her and motion for her to come over. I caveman her. She's a little drunk for my tastes but cute HB7.5. I chat with her for a minute and lead her to go dance. She's kind of weird on the dance floor in that she doesn't surrender to me. I grind with her and also give her a lot of space on the dance floor. We go on and off the dance floor a few times and I sense the club is winding down so lead her out of the club.

We leave the club and she asks where were going and I say adventure. We head to the parking garage as we're walking she asks where were going and I say this way. We get to the parking garage and she balks and asks where were going and I point and say over there. That seems to be ok. We get to my car but she won't get in. We chat and I say lets go. In my head I'm thinking engage her emotionally not logically. It's kinda fun chatting with her and being ridiculous. I don't care but at the same time I want to pull her of course. I push her against the car and make out with her. We talk some more. I pick her up and she wraps her legs around me and I can feel her bare ass with my hands because her dress is short. We chat and its a good interaction but she won't go and I'm not sure what to do with it. I even just want her to get in and we can drive to the roof of the garage and not go anywhere and go for a car pull.

I'm escalating and talking and frequently saying okay lets go. But she won't go. This goes on for a good 20 minutes standing by my car. Finally I'm tired of it and I stop pursuing and she goes away. She was into me and the interaction was pretty good but I wasn't sure where to take it. I think it was either a case of 1) she had a stronger rule about not going in cars then most girls and/or 2) I didn't have enough comfort. I only hung out with her in the club for about 30 minutes before pulling her to my car.

I'm wondering what I could have done differently. Part of me is not into trying so hard, it's like if she doesn't want to I don't want to have to go to some big effort to try to "get" her to come with me. But then I know persistence is important. And she was there and into me. It might very well been a case of "no" means "not yet". She kept saying she "hated me" in a playful way. Maybe I'm spoiled by quick pulls.

The two thoughts I had were maybe I should have taken her to the stairwell and tried to pull her there or to the roof of the garage. Or maybe I should have brought her back into the casino to get some food or just hang out. I'm not into hanging out with a girl for a long time hoping for some shit to happen. But maybe as an experiment I should do that a few times to see what happens. The other thing is out of habit I only made out with her for two or three seconds at a time which is my normal mode of operation. But I was thinking maybe I should have hardcore made out with her and started trying to finger her to get her horny.

It was a fun interaction and even though she was from out of town I should have number/facebook closed her because I kind of liked her.

Another night hanging out with a two-set

Second weekend in a row hanging out with two girls on my own. Met my girl HB7 puma at a bar where she was hanging out with her girlfriends. They were talking to some guys and I am so non-needy I do not give a flying fuck. Either she is going home with me or I am gaming some other girls, so win-win either way. I just go up to the group and yank my girl over to me and kiss her to say hello and then let her go. She goes to get one of her girlfriends away from these guys and I hang out for a minute. Then I go up to them. This is where it gets interesting.

I'm kinda of just hovering by the group. I'm not giving a shit. One of the guys who seems like a natural alpha guy says "hey you trying to get in here?" kind of trying to call me out. I can sense he's trying to amog me. I don't experience amogging very often but once in a while it happens. He says something about my girl's face being pretty and I say yeah and I make out with her in front of him. What's interesting is I do this thing I heard from manwhore which is just fucking potent. Manwhore talks about the power of your eye contact and how you can just not give it to people and how it takes the power out of what they are saying to you. He says if I guy is trying to tool you, you don't just sit there and look at him and give him your attention. Instead, you just don't even pay attention to him. It's like he's not even in you RAS.

So anyway I barely look at the guy. It's not in a way where you're beta and won't look at him rather it's like he's not even important enough for you to give him attention. Him and his friend start asking me logical questions. Where I'm from etc.. They're trying to engage me but it seems like it's not in a genuine way but to try to distract me or amog me. I answer but I don't give them my attention and I go back to talking with my girl. It lowers their value as they are trying to get my attention. As we're leaving the guy who seems like a natural alpha and who is used to being treated like an alpha is trying for rapport with me.

Anyway I leave with all the girls and we go to a club. As we're approaching the club it's just me and like 6 girls. A promoter walks us right in. We get inside and we get some drinks. Some of the girls start dancing. I go and take a massive dump. I come back. My girl starts grinding with one of the other girls.

Now I could go try to go grind with my girl but that is kind of needy. When a situation like that happens now I immediately engage myself in something. In this case dancing with some of the other girls that were with us. I just reach out my hand to one and spin her. And start dancing with her. It's like a reflex that really just solidified this weekend. Before I might have stood around waiting for my girl or gone by the bar or tried to dance with her but now it's like I don't skip a beat and I am dancing with another girl.

I grab another one of her friends and start dancing with her. My girl comes over and I dance with her some. I switching around dancing with different girls. My girl is mostly dancing with this one girl who is HB8 puma. They start making out with each other as I'm dancing with them. My threesome meter goes off immediately. But sometimes girls like to play mock by sexual. We get some more drinks. We go to another part of the club and it's just the three of us dancing and the girls are making out. Occasionally guys come up to us and try to get in and for the most part the girls just blow them out. One guy they tool and get him to take his shirt off and it's funny to watch because he thinks they are into him because they are unbuttoning his shirt but I know instantly that they are tooling him.

I want to lead them somewhere else and I suggest going to another better club. Thankfully, we look around the club but the rest of the girls are no where to be found. Poof vanished. We leave and I drive them to his other club. Unfortunately, the HB8 is kind of drunk so I have to get her to act sober. We get right in the club and I lead them upstairs. On the way I run into johnny who is out gaming. I lead them to the dance floor and we start dancing together.

The girls start making out again and I know it's time to step up. I reach my face in and we have a three way kiss. I'm not into being tacky club makeout guy so I pull out although they keep kissing. Then I kiss them each individually my girl first and for longer and the other girl. The other girl is hotter and makes me harder. I want to fuck her. I lead them downstairs and we dance some more and I make out with them both several times. As were dancing and they're making out I rubbing both of their asses and crotches from behind.

Finally I lead them out of the club to my car. I think maybe I waited too long to try for a pull but I wasn't sure what the dynamic was. We get to my car and the HB8 is kind of out of it. As we're driving it's a decision point. Where are we going? I have to think. I know I need to step up but it's a little out of my comfort because one girl is my girl and I'm not sure how into a threesome she really is. I say let's go hang out at my place. Unfortunately the HB8 is kind of falling asleep in the back seat. So they kind of say let's go to her hotel. We're about to turn to head towards her hotel and again I'm thinking I need to step up to make this happen so I get out of the turn lane and say let's go hangout at my place and start driving there.

As were driving though my girl says the other girl is passed out and I can tell she wants me to take her back to her hotel. I'm not into hooking up with drunk chicks but I was hoping she would pep up once we got to my place. Oh well. We drop her off and I bring my girl back to my place and we're both so tired we go to bed. In the morning glory times.

The next day we hang out again. And the HB8 is there again and I can tell by the way she's touching me and looking at me she wants me but I don't know how to make it happen without being a dick to my girl. My girl and her don't make out again and I suspect it's because my girl doesn't want to facilitate a threesome. Again it's just me and like 6 girls and I'm like the alpha lion. We hang out at a bar for a long time. At one point I'm coming out of the bathroom and this girl is looking at me and so, out of core habit, I approach and open her. About 30 seconds into talking with them HB8 comes over and drags me away from them.

We leave the bar and go to a club. At the club my girl and the HB8 start dancing together again and then they start dancing with some other guy, some old dude who I know has little chance. They are just being flirtatious. Nonetheless I instantly grab a girl walking by and start dancing with her. I do not miss a heartbeat. About 30 seconds later both of my girls are pulling me away from this girl and dancing on me. I was hoping for a threesome but the opportunity is not there. Still a fun night and me holding court with a group of girls. Glory times with my girl.

Amazing night

I had an amazing night the other day on a day 3 with a girl I SNL'd. I was just present and feeling good in the moment. Not trying. just being. and the night went awesome.

Girl invited me to hang out that night and I just hung out with her and her girlfriend and was just feeling good in my body. At ease in the world. It's funny because she changed my plan of what to to so we could hangout with her girlfriend which at the time I thought was lame and I was having negative thoughts of her toying with me. But it turned out to be total opposite and amazingly positive experience. We started at a bar, then went to a club, then went to an afterhours club. Dancing with both of them on the dancefloor and they loved me and guys were jealous. I felt like I was offering masculine polarity just feeling good in my body.

Ended night with great sex with my girl.

Maybe will go into more detail later, but I just wanted to remind myself of this.

Are you a stripper?

Just an odd note. Lately I've been getting asked by girls if I'm a stripper. Just something I noticed on several occasions. I must be putting out a more alpha/sexual vibe and look, because I never used to hear that.

Also, when walking through venues, people tend to respond to me. I guess I'm pulling more RAS (reticular activation system). More RAS more ASS lol. Girls notice it too. If I'm leading a girl around she'll ask me why everyone is nodding at me or looking at me. Partly this is because I'm going to venues where I know people, but even people I don't know react to me.

Thirdly, dogs. Yes dogs. No, not ugly chicks but man's best friend. Dogs are reacting different to me. When I encounter a dog I think I give off a more alpha vibe. So the dogs are more submissive to me. Also when I pet them I'm very dominate with them. It's a gentle but dominant kind of petting. I kind of gently manhandle them (and then build comfort and bathroom pull them-jk).

Flight attendant pull (69th post)

Go out to club and johnny, M, and Value are there. As I'm in a line a cute HB 7.5 texas girl opens me. She's into me and touching me. I caveman her a little. We go into the club together and once we get inside I eject. It's a bad habit of mine. When girls open me I tend to go into "too cool for school" mode and don't really engage them. It's almost automatic. Just had the thought I wonder if girls do the same thing. Like maybe they actually like you but just by habit go into blow off or too cool mode.

Again I'm sober and this night I'm just in a mellow mood and not really feeling super social. I'm trying to pump my own state. Been listening to the Blueprint again and I had just listened to the part where tyler talks about masculine polarity and slowing down and drawing state from within and feeling the energy field in your body. I'm not in a bad state but just kind of lukewarm.

Johnny is kind of choding out. I noticed M is lately maybe not trying to game particular girls. Maybe this was always his game and I just didn't notice not sure but it seems a little different. He is kind of just hanging out not really targeting any particular girl just ready to wing whoever needs a wing. Maybe he's reached that abundance mindset. I'll half to ask him about that.

Opened a variety of sets but nothing special. I'm standing with M and I see a cute HB 7.5 cougar standing at the edge of the dancefloor. I want to open her. Just so happens as I'm thinking that Johnny walks by her and opens her but nothing happens. He only talks with her for 15 seconds. I ask him what happened and he says nothing. I go in. She opens up and I lock in. I ask her who she's here with and she says she's waiting for her friends who are in the bathroom. I'm envisioning a big group. I stay and talk with her and I caveman her and bring her in close to me to hear what she's saying and then let her go. As I caveman her I can sense some resistance she is not fully surrendering. I give her a peck on the lips which she pulls back from some but I still plant it on her.

Her friend comes back from the bathroom and her friend has bangin body with fake breasts. I can see in her friends face that she is attracted to me and I meet her and caveman her. Her friend is physically more receptive seems like an easier target. Part of me wanted to switch but I felt like maybe I had chosen my girl a little too much already such that it might make me look like a douchebag.

I say lets go dance and bring them to the dancefloor. I dance with both of them for about 30 seconds but her friend leaves us alone and is sitting there at a vip table. I know this will eventually become a problem. Thankfully M and johnny show up next to me on the dancefloor. I tell M to stick around for a minute because I want him to wing me and see if he likes the other girl.

We leave the dancefloor and go to her friend. I introduce M to her. They hit it off. I gotta hand it to M he is a solid wingman and can either hit it off or at least occupy most girls. My girl asks if I want a drink. My rule about drinking is that I'm trying not to provide it myself but if it's offered I'll accept. Plus even if I didn't want it, it's an investment on the girls part in you and for that reason alone you should accept. My girl and I go to the bar and get drinks. We come back to where we were and M and her friend are not there. We look around for them a little and find them at another bar. We all hang out at the bar for about 30 minutes. M and his girl are really hitting it off. My girl and I are ok but not hitting it off as well. She has some resistance but at the same time she is interested. M takes his girl to another part of the club.

Shortly after I lead my girl to another part of the club. As I'm heading there I see M there so I purposely pick another spot in the club to go to. We hang out and look at the view and I kiss her a little bit more. I find out she's not really a cougar but closer to my age. The club is winding down. I go to pull her out of the club and she says she can't leave her friend. She's a little worried. More than the average girl. We look around the club but can't find them. I tell her that she's with M and will be fine. We leave the club.

She kind of panicking over her friend. I tell her I'm sure everything's cool. At her insistence I phone M and put her on the phone with her friend. She's reassured that everything is fine. We hang some more in the casino and I pull her back to my place. Glory times ensue.

Casino pull

Went out to club with Johnny and M. I'm trying to not drink when I go out now. Not that I ever drank all that much but I felt I needed it and I noticed it was taking more and more alcohol to get to the buzz feeling. I just need to get used to it. Besides it's cheaper not to drink. I'm not religious about it but I'm try not to facilitate the drinking, if it comes my way fine.

Opened sets and was feeling good in the club. But couldn't manage to follow through on anything. One drunk chubby chick with super cute face bought me shots so I accepted. She told me she pretty much wanted to fuck me and started sucking my finger (quite expertly I might add). I would have pulled her but she was drunk as fuck.

We leave the club and there are a lot of sets in the casino outside of the club. Casino game. We open a four set of girls who are looking for a place to continue the party. Surprisingly there are not a ton of options for afterhours in Vegas. Since we have who we knew were going to a strip club we invite them there. At first, we are not saying its a strip club but eventually it comes out and they are down with it. We hang out waiting for a ride to the strip club and during that time I focus in on a blonde chubby girl. She's probably a 5/6. She has pretty eyes and cute face and probably could be an 8 if she were in shape. I sometimes think maybe by showering these women with my sexuality that I'm inspiring them to transform themselves into the hotties they are meant to be.

We go to the strip club and I focus in on my girl I lead her away from the group and we make out a little bit. I lead her a few more places around the club and then take her out. We probably spent about 30-45 minutes in the strip club. I drive her to my place and glory times ensue. Of note she is so wet that my bed is totally soaked like never before. I actually sleep on the floor because my bed is drenched.

Car pull number two (and a half)

Went out tonight meeting johnny, M and C. We meet at a bar before heading into the club. I get there first and so I'm just sitting becoming present. C comes a few minutes later and we start talking about game and picking up strippers. M and johnny come a little while later and we're all just chilling hanging out.

A two set walks into the bar and I'm attracted to one. HB8 brunette puma with curvy body and a HB7 blondie puma with short hair. My first impulse is "that is for me" about the brunette. I have the impulse like I should go up and talk to her. I don't follow it. I keep chatting with the guys and eventually I leave to go drop a bomb. When I come back C is talking to the two set. Damn I think, I should have stepped up and talked to them now maybe he will game the girl I want. I ask M how long C has been in set. He says just a couple of minutes and he doesn't think he's picked a girl yet.

C seems to be doing well so I don't want to interrupt his flow. I give a few minutes and then I go. I walk up and say whats up to C and meet the girls. The girls are kind of talking a lot (which I like) but it means I'm just kind of standing there in spectator mode. The brunette and I have solid eye contact and I like her. I want her. I'm also not sure which girl C wants. At one point he hugs a girl and I take it that that is his target, so I switch places while he's hugging her and engage my brunette girl. I'm kind of still in spectator mode but I stay in set.

Eventually C invites them to sit down where we we're all sitting at the bar. They are little reluctant but they come. At this point I'm in mini-isolation with my girl. I'm giving her solid eye contact. We're chatting and eventually we get into new age spirituality which is actually a subject I'm into. I start talking about it and we're vibing pretty good. It's just me and her in our little bubble.

We decide to go into the club so we all head in. As we go in we saying what's up to the club staff. Once again we're fucking rockstars. We go into the club and I chat with my girl for a minute. One thing I've noticed between sets that don't go anywhere and sets where I pull is leading. If I stay in one place talking to a girl a lot of the time that means she will eventually eject. But nights when I pull I'm typically leading them all over the club. So I say let's go dance. And lead her to the dance floor.

We dance and she gives me a massive boner and I'm a little afraid to press it against her because she kind of seems like this classy, albeit sexy, business lady. I kind of press it against her but I'm a little self-conscious about it. Follow the compass! As I look at her I'm reminded of David Wygant's advice to imagine her at home using a vibrator named after you calling out your name. I do that and it gives me a cocky smile. I kiss her on the lips just a quick peck no tongue. We dance for a few minutes and then I lead her back to the bar area to find everybody.

Everyone's dispersed and we don't see them. We look around and we see C and his girl sitting down in isolation. We go say hello to them. After chatting for a little bit more I say let's go upstairs to the main part of the club. We go and I'm in front of my girl the whole time holding her hand leading her. We go upstairs and dance on the outside patio area. We kiss with tongue a little bit. We look at the view of the strip. I lead her inside and we dance in the inside dance floor.

We dance for 2 minutes inside. It's on. I feel like if I keep just hanging out with her it will stagnate. Now is the time. I lead her off the dance floor and out of the club. We leave through the casino and go to my car. We get in my car and I start heading to my place. After driving for about a minute, she says she can't leave her friend because she has all her stuff. I say ok. It's cool. I turn the car around and drive back to the hotel. Don't want to go home with me? It's ok we're not going anywhere as Johnny would say.

We get back to the hotel and I drive to the rooftop of the parking garage. I park and we talk for a minute. I lean over and start making out with her. I'm not sure what my plan is because the roof is pretty bright and I know this garage has bicycle security driving around. I start finger banging her and eventually she says put it in. I put on a condom and start fucking her in the passenger seat. I come in 5 minutes like a little bitch. But at the same time I don't want to have some extended fuck session in the car. We head back inside to find her friend.

Inside, I don't think M and Johnny realized I pulled so they are giving me advice to isolate her. That's cougatron style. First fuck her then isolate her. Nah mean?

We hang out at the club till closing and then I take her home and do her right. We have sex three times and it's great sex. She turns me on. She sleeps over and I take her back to her car in the morning.

It's car pull two and a half because last weekend I pulled another girl to my car and finger banged, handjob and nakedness but no sex.

One interesting thing is before I went out I watched some porn to get my mind in a sexual place. Then I visualized fucking a girl and eating her out on my bed. And it's weird... that's exactly what happened. It's like I saw it in my mind first and then that's what happened. And other nights where I've done that the same thing has happened. See it in your mind first.

A life you love

Moondoggy noticed my posts have been following a pattern of here's what happened on night xyz and that's it. He encouraged me to write some posts that talk about what it means and where I've been, where I am, and where I'm going in my journey. So this is a little more along those lines.

I've been in a strange place with my game lately. I feel like I know what to do on the outer level but I need to work on my inner core. Not to say that I've mastered outer game.. there is still loads more room for me to expand on so many different dimensions with that: verbal game, day game, day2 game, sex, dirty talk, etc. But I feel like I meet these girls and I have nothing to bring them into. I don't have a world that I can say look come be a part of this for a while. I want to have a life that I love and feel good on a day to day basis. I think I got in the game hoping that having girls was the path to feeling good and if I had enough girls I would feel good. You sort of think of game like this:

good game --> get girls --> feel good

But it's really more like this:

feel good --> good game --> get girls


Its like I get all these numbers but I don't follow up on them. I send a few texts or become facebook friends but I'm not really following through. And I think I don't follow through because I haven't built up that feeling of self worth and self appreciation.

One thing I want to be better at is verbal game. In the past I've tended to go into spectator mode and let other people talk. I think there's a lot of reasons for that. But I think if I had a life I love there would be some natural enthusiasm and desire to talk about what I'm excited about in my life. One thing Sam from RSD talks about is how some guys don't talk because they are nervous/stifled and can't talk with girls the way they normally talk. And I think in a way I have some of that. Not that I'm nervous but more stifled. Not letting that natural enthusiasm flow. But another thing he says is, some guys can't talk because they literally have nothing to talk about; there's nothing go on in their lives. And he says you need to develop your life so you have things to talk about. And I think that's true for me.

When I think about guys/people who can talk a lot, a lot of the time what they are talking about is either stories from things they've done in the past or what's going on currently in their life.

So I feel like I need to get in touch with what I enjoy doing and start doing that.

Let it flow

A thought I had about the head space I was in when I did my threesome. It was during the weekend of New Year's Eve so I had a three day weekend. Typically on weekends I feel like I have so much to do and I have this base line level of.. I'm not sure what to call it but let's say anxiety and I'm always trying to do stuff. I don't ever relax and let my weekend be about actually resting and having time off.

But NYE weekend I felt like it was a new year and I needed to force myself to relax. So spent the whole day just watching this TV program that I enjoy (I almost never watch TV) and not doing anything. Just letting go. And then that night I had my threesome and I was thinking about the relationship of me just letting go and relaxing and that event. It's like my weekends normally have this undercurrent of.. struggling. David D talks about how people typically approach life like struggle to change, struggle to change, struggle to change, and then they finally accept the situation. He says to consider the opposite which is accept the situation as it is and then try to change it.

So on this weekend it was like I stopped struggling stopped trying so hard and just let go. Just surrendered. And something pretty amazing happened when I did that. Anyway, I had been thinking about that link and wanted to record that shit for posterity.